Life change

I hate it when you go to an appointment of something and the doctor refers you to a better doctor and now I have to go get an MRI done to my brain. This really sucks because the other night I was crying most of the night. Lame!!
I am so afraid of machines especially the ones that are closed in. Dear lord help me!! I haven't done this in a while and last time I was too young.
Why are people so afraid of scans? Is it the closed space your in? Or is it the big noise? I hope it's not a big issue.

GIRLS GIGGLES LAUGHS

Do you ever feel like you have grown up from a group you use to hang around? I feel like i have from the way i have grown up and been an observer of what happens around your surroundings.  Is in it kind of funny that when girls see boys they like they start to laugh, giggle and run away. why don't you just go up to the boy and talk to them?

Why do you think girls are afraid to talk to boys unless they really like the guy. All girls do is call their friends and run to the friends room and giggle, laugh and talk about the guy and how good they look. They wish they could go out with him. The girls don't think the guy is their type to go out with.

Come on girls grow up and ask the guy out. Start asking him on how their day is? What their hobbies are? something along those lines. I know it took me a while to have the nerve to ask a boy to dance with me. and look at me know i am about to marry him. Things can change.

"If you don't try you won't succeed". "If you don't get down and dirty on the field, you just won't know."

SURPRISES ON HEAVEN/EARTH

What does GOD have in store for us? There are pretty much a lot of things GOD has in store for us. I think there are always good things like new friends, new relationships with family, friends, spouses. To be closer to GOD is an amazingly awesome thing.  It's always a good thing for GOD to do something for you but it's more amazing thing to do for GOD in return. But i think we always ask GOD of what he has for to do on earth? I believe we are still asking him because we are not 100% sure about it. We still are searching for the answer.

GOD always is keeping an eye out for us to go with the good or bad. It's sometimes a Roller coaster for people on Earth.

A secret life without knowing

From all the years while Jennifer was growing up and was adopted from a family. The girl she  looked up to from gymnastics while growing up was her biological sibling. I haven't. There is a girl who was adopted asked her adopted mom about her biological parents and she told her the girl gymnast was her real sister. Jennifer was left at the hospital because she was born with out any legs. Her biological parents left her there because she wasn't normal like her sister Dominique Moceanu who was the star athlete wining the u.s olympics. I can't believe how their biological parents didn't tell their own kids that there was another sister they could have known.  So after the sisters biological father died they got together  to catch up on all the time they missed growing up.

Being Noticed

        Would you just like to have a day or two with someone that you haven't seen in a while? I know i  would. Especially, a family member. Not talking on the phone isn't enough. I know someone and especially me i fell like i am invisible in a way you don't feel like you exist. You move out and live your life and grow up like a grown up.

      I wonder how feels like this? Some people just a day or two to talk to their parent with no distractions.

Journey to a healthy body

Phase 1: The first week of the South beach diet wasn't to bad because it was trying different things to reset my digestion system. So my body can burn fat not just sugar & carbohydrates. Pretty much after the first week of the diet i feel more energized then ever. I believe if your eating sugar & carbohydrates it just drains you and you just don't want to do anything. But with this diet it takes those out for the first two weeks and then you introduce the whole wheat pasta breads in phase 2.
   When you take sugar, & carbs you can  see why you don't really need those. That you can still eat some of foods.

American Dream

Watching girls and boys cheerleading and how hard they work day after day for hours you can see how dedicated my sister and her team are.
I am so proud of my sister and how she has grown up as a young lady.
Going for something she loves to do.
I can see how I love to go travel and support her.

When they work hard from morning to night they put 120%  in their practices and they
get to have free time to go swim or go to the parks.
It is so amazing how a team can come together and look awesome on the stage they
 perform on and be one of the finalist.
My sister lives and breaths cheer day in and day out.

Mismatch Negativity

All my life growing up I felt like I wasn't adding up to family expectations like being a certain weight. Not that i was over weight all my life.Everyone was telling me, "Madeline you should be exercising everyday." I usually try to exercise as much as I can. I always heard that too much exercise is bad.
Why can't some people understand? Does it seem like Americans these days are brain washed of everyone especially women these days have to be skinny.

It really hurts me that my family can't just tell me the positive thing I'm doing and not be so negative. Sometimes I feel like going to a therapist will help.

Sometimes I feel like the only people that give me good positive things are my dad,brother, friends, fiancé, and fiancé's family.

I just hate criticism from people you love just shoot you down and even when you are trying to look at the positive things in life.

Hearing the others

Have you ever had a feeling that someone personal is contacting you for something from the other side? I have. Is that something to be proud of or not? Are you psychic? Could you be? Yes or no?
In October one year I felt like my cousin was contacting me when he was a little boy.
Now my grandmother is trying to contact me to tell the rest of my family that she is safe in heaven.

My Wedding

I can't believe I am getting married. I thought it would be a little longer but I am glad it's now. I am so in love with my fiance. People don't believe in marriage but I do. It is a great feeling that you know someone will always love you forever and ever. You know that you can see your spouse's face every night and day and the rest of your life. When little girls are young they all dream about their wedding and how they want their wedding to be like. When it finally comes true it's very rewarding.
   When girls dream about their wedding and especially their dream boyfriend/husband they just giggle and laugh. When they meet that special guy they been dreaming of over the years growing up. They can see that the guy really cares about them and wants to spend the rest of their lives together. Living in the same place before marriage is always an awesome experience.
I can't believe right now, that I really feel nervous with a surprise engagement especially planning process and I know we have a year to plan.

Believe

I think if you believe in yourself to do things you think is hard do it!! See how far you can push yourself. You won't know how far you can go if you don't try. Leaving Facebook for lent I know it will be hard but as I said earlier is that if you don't try you won't know.

Please believe in your friends and be on their side.

Run Run Run AWAY!!!!

When you are going to school and your having fun with your friends. Then enjoying the school. Why does some people that have started trouble in a previous time have to come back then hopefully you  pray they don't start up crap again. When you think life is all settled down and life is going as planned. You feel like school is free sailing from here. Why can't some people who have left or dropped out stay out and just move on like some of us who want a good education with no issues. I just wonder. Do you think some of us students have to find another route to our classes when we are on campus? Or do you think this person is just pull our legs? I personally would be surprised that this person who says they are coming back will not show up.